what a weekend.

friday i was in a party with former officemates where booze and tears flowed. funny antics and sentiments were poured out. i was one of those who poured out my misery. one of my friends kasi made me realize something. and that something hit me so hard that i dread the day it comes true. i pray that it won't. i didnt cry, but when i went home, i did. so that made me really really depressed.

saturday i went shopping by myself, as i usually do. shopping alone gives me time to think. it gives me the freedom to say whatever i want in my head. i had dinner by myself at a restaurant, i think a first for me. im trying to do a lot of things by myself now. after dinner i went to a college friend's bday which didnt help much to cheer me up. but i had a great time with them, and i look forward to seeing them more often. around midnight i met up with my college friends/ co-dancers for some drinks. i met two new persons. i think this is what i should do now, meet new people. i had fun, went home around 4, had breakfast by myself at mcdo, slept around 7am, and woke up at 5pm. totally missed my lakad with my sis. i told her ill make up to it by going this saturday.

a friend of mine told me i think too much. that i over- analyze. that i plan way ahead. i admit its true. but i can't help it.

sometimes, you think you know a person so well. you have this solid perception, be it positive of negative, of who he is. then that person changes, and now you don't know what to do, or how to react anymore. it's what's bothering me now. there's a person in my life that breezed in just recently, and am having the funnest time when spent with that person. just when i think we're that close to talk about stuff close friends talk about, the person changes. and i don't want him to. his presence in my life right now is very comforting and admittedly, needed. so for him to "drift" away is going to be really really painful. i just hope the closeness we have right now isn't temporary cause if it is, sana hindi na lang kami naging close.